After our rehearsal, we had a group discussion. Katrine came along and asked if there was anything she could do such as be on the board, I said she can but she’d need to let Liz know but then she said that she didn’t think she’d be good enough for the board in case she got answers wrong to some questions. Me and Ari said there’s no right or wrong answer and that we pretty much know what we’re doing so we can only base our answers on our knowledge to match the question.
HOWEVER, Katrine then said that she felt me and Ari had most ‘control’ over the group therefore we know the ‘ins and outs’ so we’d be able to answer them well. That infuriated me. Simply because we’ve asked for everyone’s contribution and no one has given us anything. Then she kept asking if there’s anything else she can do and I said ‘I am not here to delegate roles, you know what needs to be done so if there’s anything you feel you can put your hand to then please do so.’ So she said she’d read the introduction, i.e. the one I wrote. I said fine, she claimed she would tweak it. She also said ‘I’m sure the other’s would like to do something or read it with me?’ And looked at Justyna and Holly who both said ‘No it’s fine these guys seem so confident and know what they’re talking about they’d do the team justice.’ i.e. ‘I don’t know what’s going on do I’m not going to give my input as these guys have done all the work so I’m just going to sit back and relax.
My intro I wrote:
‘How do we come to define internal processes of the artist?
Well, we can’t. But we can develop a value consensus on basic principles involved in internal processes that influence an artist and their practice.
What we can all agree on is that internal processes are fed by impulses, felt deeply and innately.
Secondly, they are partly dictated by cognitions of the individual, these involve processes of making choices, decisions and judgements that lead to valuable deductions. In these processes, there is a raised consciousness with the artist and as their practice evolves and takes shape.
Through studying texts such as ‘Writings’ by Agnes Martin and Giorgio de Chirico’s ‘Mystery and Creation’, we have developed ideas on the concept of ‘Self’ and how we all have explored this through materials and processes to form our own practices.
Now, we will go on to present to you a video we have made which consists of clips of us exploring various materials and processes as a result of our own internal processes. This will be followed by a performance by Sarah, who will sing to you a song we have written containing quotes we have extracted from the texts we have been looking at as singing is key to her practice.’
‘Can we define an internal process of an artist?
We have developed a value consensus, on what we believe, is basic principles involved in internal processes.
Internal processes are fed by impulses, felt deeply and innately.
Secondly, they are guided by cognitions of the individual, involving processes such as seeing choices, making judgements and pursue decisions that lead to valuable deductions. As these processes are occurring, there is a raised consciousness in the artist.
Studying texts such as ‘Writings’ by Agnes Martin and Giorgio de Chirico’s ‘Mystery and Creation’, we have developed ideas on the concept of ‘Self’. We have explored this through materials and processes in our own practice.
We have made a video where we are exploring our internal process. The video will be followed by a performance by Sarah, where she explores her internal process. She will sing a song we have written. It is based on quotes we have extracted from the texts we have been looking at.’
Now, I sent her my copy because I knew she had no idea what we’ve been talking about in these T.O.P. talks. But I think she could have at least tried to change it a bit more. The thing is, mine was a first draft so I didn’t bother redrafting because I wanted to know what everyone had to say about it, but I find it really upsetting that she couldn’t even rewrite one in her own words. It’s very lazy and I’m incredibly unhappy.
Anyway, bring on the Symposium.